its saturday and im BORED

Sometimes or rather most of the time i feel i dont know what i want.. in life.. im talking in terms 360' ...

I think i like being depressed and alone.. u come across so many inspirational thought provoking blah blah but i guess unless u really wanna change it will continue to be blah blah :@

changing how one thinks is damn hard even if u know change is for the better ..

man its so hot.. wondering whether i should just put the fan on... lazyyy to move anything but my fingers..

I was having a smoke today and i noticed the neighbors son camouflaged (did i spell it right) by trees on his balcony watching me .. if his mom saw i feel sorry for him .. conservative muslims they are .. and im all haram.. too old... wearing too short shorts.. surrounded by dogs.. and ash !!! anyway i couldnt enjoy my damn smoke after seeing him .... havin one after weeks too..

I dont know what to do today.. i have class at 2.30pm .. i read a bit.. damn such a boring saturday... why do we always wish what we dont/cant have! ok im bored with this too for now..ill go back to Hogwarts ... or ill end up shoving thingss in to my mouth ...